23/05/10
Marina Square & singaporeflyers with family (:

I intend to upload some photos, bt blogger doesnt allow me to do so.. Don ask me why, idk why either! Perhaps next time when i got e mood again, haa..

Stomach getting heavier, backaches getting mre serious, legs starting to get abit swollen,stretch marks getting mre,buttock giving me prob and whts mre, weight getting heavier :(
Its really nvr easy getting pregnant, nvr nvr..

Decided to give myself 1 or 2 days breaks, frm home.. Nth serious, no big probs..
Jus that i feel i shd do that (:
I miss e past, i miss when we used to cuddle each other on e single bed, i miss playing bs side by side, i miss staying over at ur place whn we got no place to go, i miss drinking with u at hm, i miss lying dwn on bed and watch show with u, i miss whn we cant fall slp n we would go buy supper tog, i miss u coming over to find me each and single day jus to fetch me over to yr place, i miss u say u miss me, i miss u say u cant slp w/o me, i miss those lil suprises frm u.. And what i really miss, is e past u.. E u whom wont throw me aside, put me alone and think of me each and every time..
I knw things wouldnt go so smoothly in life, i knw things wouldnt goes as our wish.. So shd jus let nature tk course.. I knw what iwan in life, i knw what iwan now and i knw wht iwan in e future.. I gonna strive hard for my future be it good or bad.. Jiayou huiwen*

Jus recieved madeline msg, she give birth to her bb girl yst.. Congrats! Bt her exp like abit too scary laaaa! hahahahah! So Est, be prepare for our worst uh.. =D

Time to change my template and update my blog~!! PLS WAKE UP AND DON BE LAZY!

I've been reading those young mummies blogs the whole night yst, and e main topic i went into was only "the arrival of e bb" part.. After reading i couldnt fall asleep throughout e day, cos i was damn scared la!!! Normally bb was born after e 36weeks, and if im nt wrong im currently 33weeks.. Which means i only left with 3-4weeks and i've to go through all those pain? Idk how was e pain, bt frm wht i read the pain was unbearable w/o epidural and i was very curious abt e effect of using e laughing gas.. Idk abt others, bt at this stage i start to think alot things like, hw's e bb is doing? will bb be fine after birth? And he wasnt really active as before, maybe cos he's growing and start to have lesser space inside..

I'm thinking of using Zaydien as his christian name, idk how it'll goes.. Bt i find it quite cool la! LOL

In the past i always thought how good and fortunate it is to have a room of my own, and a family with less ppl.. Bt i was wrong.. I start to knw e feeling of loneliness, boredom and those scared feelings.. From small i've been sharing room with ahma and bro, so whenever im afraid they're always there sleeping beside me.. I seriously don like being alone, cos i've NVR been alone before.. At my own place, i always have ahma and ahgong around e whole day.. Bt here? He will always ask if he can go out, wht if my ans is no? I hate saying e word "u wan go u go lor" cos i knw im lying to myself and i knw i hate him gg out during e night bt if i don say this i guess our r\s wont last either.. Idk i jus felt tt he doesnt tk things seriously at all, who doesnt wan their husband to be beside them everyday esp pregnant women? IDK! yes, although he don go out everynight bt every 2 or 3 days he will go out once.. I jus feel so unfair! we both wan e child yet im e one staying at hm.. I also feel like gg out, i really wanted to go out so much.. I feel so sick staying at hm! Sorry, idk wht gots into me.. bt i jus feel like saying how i feel.. I don feel good, nt good at all.. I dunno hw to be a good wife nor whomever, all i knw is i hate everything now.. I wanted so much to be back like last time..